✝Affection✝

I’ve decided to post this up since taking a break from all the toil of doing projects even at such late hours. This was written in a much different manner as compared to the past few ones because was just helping someone with some inspiration-cracking, so this was kinda formed upon inspiration and randomness as I give a lending hand. Enjoy.

"Your gentleness your charm taken me over
My spirit relished when it’s just you and me.
Intrigued my senses was your warm presence
Causing me to be head over heels for you.

Taking a solitary stroll along the streets of town
A deep rooted part of my mind elicits longing for you.
Just as how stars are needed to light the sky
Your presence your embrace in my dawn and dusk.

Fully immerse in your promised love
Nonchalant I am of what I was.
Savoring the taste of your sweetness
So abandoned I am to that heavenly dream.

Through the tranquility of aimless sauntering
An extrinsic truth slowly finds its worth.
For you alone I have predilection for
Pledging never to take a step back from you.

With changes I warped my perspective of you
Yet as you draw near anticipation harness within me.
Yielding the long awaited fruit of our affection
So thrust into I lost myself in the world of you."

✝'Packaged' Smile✝

Evening slowly approach
In the inky darkness I no longer see.
A sudden urge to make a wish -
A wish on a reachable falling star.

Always racing against time
It has gotten me so breathless.
With all that was expected
Hoping to just take a step back.

Let your ray constantly shine
‘Coz I’m afraid the shadow will darken.
As penetrative as it can be
Let it not expand within me.

Standing in such cold rain
Will you just wash this painful dream away?
A small hand clenching yours
Hold on me tightly as you would.

Wrapping all grieves in a package of smiles
It doesn’t always appear the way it seems.
In this embrace when everything seems bleak
Can I send you my message of tears?

✝Day by Day✝

With the sight of lightning
And the call of thunder;
When all seems to be as calm as it is
It has once again showed its ‘face.’

What I once wish I could forget
Was gradually progressing; But
When an uncalled truth was revealed
It has gotten all messed up.

At such hours of life
When serenity just fills the air;
The blinded reality has broken it all
Leaving behind only affliction.

Hating myself for feeling this way
I wish I had never known;
In midst of such a painful wrestle
Will you release me from such bondage?

✝Memories✝

Through the demanding pursuit of life
There is no room to even catch a breath.
In such meaningless hours
I find myself growing even wearier.

Stumbling upon the past
Finding myself taken captive by it.
As tears fall uncontrollably
I wish so hard that time could stand still.

Just as I had forgotten all that it is
Your call of departure came.
Once again pricking upon my heart
Was your reviving presence.

Hoping to erase every single spot
Wishing all is just a dream.
Yet realizing it cannot be so
Knowing that this can’t be anymore real.

✝Confusion✝

Through all those times
Trust is what I’ve learnt.
Yet when a different story was told
From the mouth of one I trust
I’m no longer sure anymore.

My impression has always been so
Believing in what was given.
Yet all was totally shattered
With just a mere single line;
Has everything been too beautiful, too perfect?

Once believing it’s a reality
That all could have been so as said.
But a hard knock of the truth
Has broken all that ‘fantasy’
One that I’m starting to doubt.

Choosing to let go of all the past
When starting all over again was decided.
Yet trying to erase that spoken truth
Was ‘the’ care and assurance;
Making me fall back to where I once was.

Tell me, what all suppose to mean?
That I may leave that state of confusion.
As much as I wanted to give my belief
I realized I couldn’t
Can I still lean fully on this impression I once had?

✝Silence✝

Along that lonely path I walked
Calling out for You I hear no reply.
Yet to You I trust I patiently wait
But that silence’s chilling my heart.

‘Where are You?’ I desperately called
Hoping for an answer but I found none.
Lost and disappointment was all I could feel
Yet letting You go I’m reluctant to.

‘Is this the testing of my heart?’ I wondered
During this time when You don’t reveal.
Knowing Your response don’t determine Your reality
But help my heart not grow cold as time passes.

Even now Your tangibility fails to show
Will You assure me of backing me up?
Hoping for Your light to be shone
As I continue to stand trusting in You.

As I was thinking through some stuffs 2day, a question popped up in my mind.
Question: Why did God choose not to reveal Himself at certain junction of our lives as how He ought to?
Is it because He do not love us anymore?
Or is it because He just simply ‘no mood?’
Or is it because He just do not want to move?
Etc..?

Answer I’ve got - [2 Chronicles 32:31]
No doubts der may b other possibilities to tis question; Tis is jux one of e many possibilities.
Derived a few tings:

- God’s nt gonna leave us alone.

- God’s nt gonna let us bear beyond what we can bear.

- God’s sure gonna back us up

- Testing of our heart quality is inevitable

- All we needa do is prob jux 2 walk obediently in His Plan, trust Him accordin 2 His pace; God’ll surely reveal e life mystery.

- Thou waitin is a tough/tedious process, but it sure moulds our character & at e same time discover more of ourselves.

Der4, my question is, how are you gonna respond to such?

✝Inspired✝

Specially dedicated to my 3 pillars who believed together with me...

Title: "Inspired"

A gleam of light
That shines so bright;
The flame of faith
Has never died down;
Streaming river
That flows down hope;
Pressing on
Is what you believe in;
Storms of discouragement
May call on your door;
But never have your leading
Came to a halt;
Waves and tides may come and go
But the will to serve
You’ve never let go.

Spread your wings above us all
Under your lead
We soar for God;
Under your undying support
We claim back what’s rightfully ours
As we stand fighting against the dark;
Journey is tedious
And seas may roar
But there’s always a reason
Each day for you to laugh.

Leading with all your heart and all your soul
With a spirit of love
You fully committed your life;
This journey with God
Has just begun
And the best in you
Have yet to unleash;
Anointed by the inspiring Touch
From no one else but the Holy one;
Fly towards the higher sky
For He said
You’re His Chosen One.