✝Tears of Assurance✝

<Jeremiah 29:11-14a>
For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you," declares the LORD,

<Psalm 94:18-19>
When I said, "My foot is slipping,"
your love, O LORD, supported me.
When anxiety was great within me,
your consolation brought joy to my soul.

✝Divine✝

The toil of loneliness having to carry such aimless direction, painful misses has finally been overwhelmed.
Always trying so hard to press on, to hold on, and even not to think too much and put on a front to smile and laugh has finally been overpowered.
This heart that has already lost hope and dead through the passage of disappointments has finally been revived.
The moment of decision to let go all without turning back is about to solidify has finally been softened to hold on.
Seeking You so earnestly for an answer, at least a tinge of Your assurance has finally been made through a divine message from an unfamiliar facet.
Yet who would be the one who truly be in my shoes and understand the real me through and through?

✝The Real Me✝

Foolish heart looks like we're here again
Same old game of plastic smile
Don't let anybody in
Hiding my heartache, will this glass house break
How much will they take before I'm empty
Do I let it show, does anybody know?

But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me
Painted on, life is behind a mask
Self-inflicted circus clown
I'm tired of the song and dance
Living a charade, always on parade
What a mess I've made of my existence
But you love me even now
And still I see somehow
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me

Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me
You're turning the tattered fabric of my life into
A perfect tapestry
I just wanna be me
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me
And you love me just as I am
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me

✝Oblivion✝

Like the wave being tossed and turned
Neither here nor there calling unknown
I seek I find I desire my purpose to reveal
Yet standing lost I ponder my true existence.

Over the past there’s no room left for me
Therefore as I stepped into the future uncertain
With faith I boldly stood across the line
Yet still I found no place being the odd once more.

Memoirs of reminiscence I yearned so much for
Have I lost the true meaning of my life
Or am I just remaining for the sake of it all?
In You I’m still trying hard press on forth.

Help me Lord as I stand firm in You in love
That I may not lose out in the race in the midst
Holding me back is all I could possibly cling on
Will this truly last me through and through?

Sturdy as it’s shown on the exterior I portray
A lonely and lost soul cries out from deep within
Wishing things could be better I don’t know how
So will I forfeit heavily at the end of the day?