✝Day by Day✝

With the sight of lightning
And the call of thunder;
When all seems to be as calm as it is
It has once again showed its ‘face.’

What I once wish I could forget
Was gradually progressing; But
When an uncalled truth was revealed
It has gotten all messed up.

At such hours of life
When serenity just fills the air;
The blinded reality has broken it all
Leaving behind only affliction.

Hating myself for feeling this way
I wish I had never known;
In midst of such a painful wrestle
Will you release me from such bondage?

✝Memories✝

Through the demanding pursuit of life
There is no room to even catch a breath.
In such meaningless hours
I find myself growing even wearier.

Stumbling upon the past
Finding myself taken captive by it.
As tears fall uncontrollably
I wish so hard that time could stand still.

Just as I had forgotten all that it is
Your call of departure came.
Once again pricking upon my heart
Was your reviving presence.

Hoping to erase every single spot
Wishing all is just a dream.
Yet realizing it cannot be so
Knowing that this can’t be anymore real.

✝Confusion✝

Through all those times
Trust is what I’ve learnt.
Yet when a different story was told
From the mouth of one I trust
I’m no longer sure anymore.

My impression has always been so
Believing in what was given.
Yet all was totally shattered
With just a mere single line;
Has everything been too beautiful, too perfect?

Once believing it’s a reality
That all could have been so as said.
But a hard knock of the truth
Has broken all that ‘fantasy’
One that I’m starting to doubt.

Choosing to let go of all the past
When starting all over again was decided.
Yet trying to erase that spoken truth
Was ‘the’ care and assurance;
Making me fall back to where I once was.

Tell me, what all suppose to mean?
That I may leave that state of confusion.
As much as I wanted to give my belief
I realized I couldn’t
Can I still lean fully on this impression I once had?

✝Silence✝

Along that lonely path I walked
Calling out for You I hear no reply.
Yet to You I trust I patiently wait
But that silence’s chilling my heart.

‘Where are You?’ I desperately called
Hoping for an answer but I found none.
Lost and disappointment was all I could feel
Yet letting You go I’m reluctant to.

‘Is this the testing of my heart?’ I wondered
During this time when You don’t reveal.
Knowing Your response don’t determine Your reality
But help my heart not grow cold as time passes.

Even now Your tangibility fails to show
Will You assure me of backing me up?
Hoping for Your light to be shone
As I continue to stand trusting in You.

As I was thinking through some stuffs 2day, a question popped up in my mind.
Question: Why did God choose not to reveal Himself at certain junction of our lives as how He ought to?
Is it because He do not love us anymore?
Or is it because He just simply ‘no mood?’
Or is it because He just do not want to move?
Etc..?

Answer I’ve got - [2 Chronicles 32:31]
No doubts der may b other possibilities to tis question; Tis is jux one of e many possibilities.
Derived a few tings:

- God’s nt gonna leave us alone.

- God’s nt gonna let us bear beyond what we can bear.

- God’s sure gonna back us up

- Testing of our heart quality is inevitable

- All we needa do is prob jux 2 walk obediently in His Plan, trust Him accordin 2 His pace; God’ll surely reveal e life mystery.

- Thou waitin is a tough/tedious process, but it sure moulds our character & at e same time discover more of ourselves.

Der4, my question is, how are you gonna respond to such?

✝Inspired✝

Specially dedicated to my 3 pillars who believed together with me...

Title: "Inspired"

A gleam of light
That shines so bright;
The flame of faith
Has never died down;
Streaming river
That flows down hope;
Pressing on
Is what you believe in;
Storms of discouragement
May call on your door;
But never have your leading
Came to a halt;
Waves and tides may come and go
But the will to serve
You’ve never let go.

Spread your wings above us all
Under your lead
We soar for God;
Under your undying support
We claim back what’s rightfully ours
As we stand fighting against the dark;
Journey is tedious
And seas may roar
But there’s always a reason
Each day for you to laugh.

Leading with all your heart and all your soul
With a spirit of love
You fully committed your life;
This journey with God
Has just begun
And the best in you
Have yet to unleash;
Anointed by the inspiring Touch
From no one else but the Holy one;
Fly towards the higher sky
For He said
You’re His Chosen One.

✝To That Special Someone✝

Through that pain and confusion
Your presence means a lot to me
Sensing your hesitation to speak
I didn’t know how to respond

Through the walk of stillness
Sorting out my thoughts was all I did
Not wanting to speak hurtful words
Silence was all I could do

Your love your sincerity, appreciated
Knowing me was what you wonder
Going through my mind was a mess
As things came after another

Never did I knew
What’s said hurts you that way
My apology is what I sincerely send
Forgive me for that, will you?

Sorry that it startled you
Probably I’ve suppressed too deep
All started to flow
When it was pricked

With all my heart
Overflowing gratitude covers me
Sincerely thanking God
I don’t have to refrain in front of you

As painful as it has been
As tears has flowed like never before
All I need is time
Understanding is what I seek

When time has come
When readiness calls
Will be when my heart’s open
To share what’s really at stake

Pressing on, standing tall
Is my assurance for you
With all encouragements
Will you give your continual support?

✝ Footprints✝

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking
Along the beach with the Lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene,
He noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
He looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life
There was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened
At the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him
And he questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, You said that once I decided to follow You,
You'd walk with me all the way.

But I have noticed that
During the most troublesome times in my life,
There is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when I needed
You most you would leave me."

The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
When you see only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you."

✝Afresh✝

Haunting past
I'm reminded again
Knocking on my door
Was that arousing fear

Never once i knew
It hurts that bad
Until what's hidden
Became so clear

Once or twice
It has never happened
More than this
I refused to 'see'

Yet ray of hope
have shone upon me
Assuring me that
It can be put behind

Now all I want
is to move on from here
Giving them my best
from this very moment...

✝A RinG aWaY ✝ [Revised]

With much prayers and trust in God despite the tough waiting, received a call from an agency to be a tutor coordinator. Its scope involves matching students with the most suitable tutor for lessons. However, i know tt tis is gonna be very seasonal and once-off thing [means i would need another job tt's more stabalized and not seasonal]. Therefore, i would like to appeal to those out there, if you know of anybody [or even yaself] who needs a tutor, do give me a ring at 97711809 and i'll help you guys out with the matching.
P.S. Those wana b a tutor are welcome too.

Reason why i needed this is bcoz der's a situation in my family tt i needa help out to tide over and even support myself during this period of time. Seein how heavy the burden my parent are carrying makes me wana do my part and responsibilities too. At the same time, holding onto that glimpse of hope and God's Promise of Providence deep inside my heart.

Hey guys, ya simple act of help [by asking ard within ya social network etc..] will be greatly appreciated and even help in a great extent!