Laid down my pride I seek utmost forgiveness
For the foolishness of my anger released upon
Awakened by the daunting truth of my wrong
By this deadlock I’m left stranded, struggling.
Exonerate me for the murder of the very heart
Lost myself totally to the immoderate passion
So envious as I witness the path of your desire.
Returning to its state of original I ponder deeply
Just where pursuit of dream can be maximized
As the best of all worlds are not within grasp.
Having to relinquish the ever so precious to me
Inflicted the core of me never can I lay my hands on
Tranquilized I am to put all of them behind me
Missing so much of ‘you’ has it tingled your heart?
Yet stealing away this immense I forcefully accept
Could only swallow hard for better plan You claimed
For the thwart of my plans when would it finally fit in?
But so different the path taken is it still permissible?
Further I consider the more I should release ‘you’ to soar
Though pain was my heart as I held ever so tightly on.
In the silence of my heart I fail to avoid
Time and time again it just comes back
A lullaby of all misses resounds endlessly
But whenever it calls my heart just relent.
Flowing from within was what has been bottled
Behind the façade of all sorts of smiles
Hides the pain of this vulnerable heart.
Inflicting more pain and longing than it has
Left with a undying string of connection
Ever considering if severity would be the best.
Gracefully I pray for the stars to stay watch
‘Cause moments of such darkness scares me
More than I asked for: the beauty of the moon
As the clouds clears its way off from vagueness.
Deep inside me somewhere I want to keep
With all having within your own comfort
Has it already been assumed to be for you?
Yet revelation of truth gets so crystal clear:
The fact of living in a difference of two worlds
Despite trying with all strength and heart.
Finally I realized my belonging was totally lost
Beginning to fear the many scenes of falsity
How would everything turn out to be eventually?
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your love, O LORD, supported me.
When anxiety was great within me,
your consolation brought joy to my soul.
The toil of loneliness having to carry such aimless direction, painful misses has finally been overwhelmed.
Always trying so hard to press on, to hold on, and even not to think too much and put on a front to smile and laugh has finally been overpowered.
This heart that has already lost hope and dead through the passage of disappointments has finally been revived.
The moment of decision to let go all without turning back is about to solidify has finally been softened to hold on.
Seeking You so earnestly for an answer, at least a tinge of Your assurance has finally been made through a divine message from an unfamiliar facet.
Yet who would be the one who truly be in my shoes and understand the real me through and through?
Foolish heart looks like we're here again
Same old game of plastic smile
Don't let anybody in
Hiding my heartache, will this glass house break
How much will they take before I'm empty
Do I let it show, does anybody know?
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me
Painted on, life is behind a mask
Self-inflicted circus clown
I'm tired of the song and dance
Living a charade, always on parade
What a mess I've made of my existence
But you love me even now
And still I see somehow
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me
You're turning the tattered fabric of my life into
A perfect tapestry
I just wanna be me
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me
And you love me just as I am
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me
Like the wave being tossed and turned
Neither here nor there calling unknown
I seek I find I desire my purpose to reveal
Yet standing lost I ponder my true existence.
Therefore as I stepped into the future uncertain
With faith I boldly stood across the line
Yet still I found no place being the odd once more.
Have I lost the true meaning of my life
Or am I just remaining for the sake of it all?
In You I’m still trying hard press on forth.
That I may not lose out in the race in the midst
Holding me back is all I could possibly cling on
Will this truly last me through and through?
A lonely and lost soul cries out from deep within
Wishing things could be better I don’t know how
So will I forfeit heavily at the end of the day?
